(Source: weheartit.com, via thesexkitten)
See you for what seems like 5 minutes then you have plans. Every other night you come home then you have to go back out til 1am or later.
Idk I need to vent. Maybe I’m just being clingy. Been a while since a great relationship. Ill just shut up now.
- May 31
- , 2012
So I have finally moved back to the Harbor…
Screwed out of living in TacTown by my older sister. I need to go friday to get my last paycheck, well I know its my last but my boss doesnt. Fucking hated that job. Have to find a place to live here in town with Aly and my sister, get a good job so I can feed my expensive habits, and I gotta apply for foodies yet again. Still have yet to see some people I havent seen in a long time. I gotta avoid girls here though. Every girl Ive dated here has shown me harbor girls cant handle my amount of maturity and procrastination(Which is so much better than what it was). I feel like I was away on a distant planet fighting a long time enemy. Well I am back, and the enemy is vanquished. Patrick is back. Time to make some days and smiles. Hopefully soon I can fix my computer and keep working on writing my music and mixes. I NEED to start looking at Seattle raves to see which one I can start my career with. Less than a year left til my chance in Miami, and Ayla and Chance will be visiting so I can throw a rave for the Family. Gah I cant wait. I wonder what DJ’s I should ask to come do this with me…(If I know any by then..)
- May 2
- , 2012
Then I am giving up on you…
- April 27
- , 2012
After they had been sitting on the table for a goddamn month. Honestly? When someone gets a letter in the mail, YOU FUCKING TELL THEM! But hey its cool, I understand, making me past due in my bills is the cool thing right? FUCK!
Can I not trust anyone with anything? Im either ridiculed about my choice of lifestyle, lied to and ignored, or treated like Im a child and I don’t know anything. I literally am devoid of hope now.
I’ve got til Tuesday to find a place to exist, I’ve got til yesterday to pay my hospital bill, and I’ve got til whenever my body finishes feeding off itself til I am literally nothing.
I don’t understand. Im a positive, hardworking, intelligent individual who is always getting slipped the shitty half of whatever control I have over my life. Is it so hard to let me be fucking happy and relaxed? My life would be so much more… successful if I could sleep for once, if I could eat a meal without feeling sick to my stomach, if I didn’t have to deal with fucking idiots for a change!
Honestly, God or whoever is ‘all-powerful’, just drive a bus into me. Im sick of being ignored, abused, and used as everyones scapegoat. Im fucking done trying to make this world a betterchance place. It wont happen, it CAN’T happen. The word impossible was invented for one use only.
Im going to smoke, eat what little I can, then pass out. Fuck this plane of existence.
- April 25
- , 2012
So I just came across this group called “No Hairy Girls”
The description is as followsWe talk about everyone not in this group.
We love a nicely shaved women.
Can’t talk or take shit talking, get out.The group admins are two people that I recently have been attacked by (suicide prevention fiasco)
This group is about me.
Do you know how I fucking feel right now?
wow what the actual fuck
and Jaycock Hanson,
from Aberdeen, Washington, eh?
Let’s make themmm famous this year. Get a few people to reblog this and let’s let any future employers see what sort of people they’re hiring when they Google their names.
i’m for that.
what kind of name is Chazdyn Shackleton or Jaycock Hanson for that matter?
Yeah, Chazdyn Shackleton? That’s the kind of name that just constantly looks misspelled.
Also anyone else find it funny that Jaycock Hanson’s name has the word ‘cock’ in it and he is, in fact, a dick
or is that some stupid fake name he put on facebook to be cool because apparently people do that
omg
Chazdyn likes to leave girls when they are 9 months pregnant with his baby. And nope, his name is Jayson Hancock.
Sadly, I know both of these people and those are their real names.
Im scared.
Terrified.
I have no one to talk to.
I don’t want to accept anyones help
Because its my fault in the first place.
I want to breakdown.
Stop being so strong and positive.
I want to explode with ..
I don’t know, anything.
I want to feel wanted and safe.
I want my effort to mean something.
Im so sick of fighting.
I want to be happy,
And not be cheated by life.
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- April 25
- , 2012
- April 25
- , 2012
(Source: disgraceme)
Im so glad I have her for a whole ‘nother decade
- April 24
- , 2012
